FOMO-Fear
of Missing Out
Thanks to god’s mercy, I passed the 1st
semester. Despite studying so hard, I thought I would fail the exam which
luckily didn’t happened. Coming to 2nd semester, my gardes have
fallen and I am suffering from anxiety which I have mentioned on my earlier
writings as well.
I don’t know if this term ‘FOMO’ is popularly used
before or not but I had not heard this term until Vsauce mentioned it in his
video. It really hits me hard as I don’t want to miss anything in my life. Let
it be my studies, my friend circle, cricket/football matches, news etc. and
many more from a list of long.
Narayan GC, one of my favourite teacher said, “Life
is all about balancing the things” and I have miserably failed on that aspect.
Just the day before I am writing this, we bid a small event at the college
expressing thanks and gratitude to Narayan GC sir for his immense contribution
to us on 1st and 2nd semester as he would no longer be
teaching us. That day, my mood was so bad that I could not truly live that
moment. Not only on that day, but on several occasions before that as well, I
am not living up to my expectations.
The FOMO makes me achieve many things at a time but
at a long term, it’s depressing to an extent that I miss to truly live on
important moments.
Similarly, few days back, we had a Teej programme at
my house. To all the non-Nepali readers, Teej is a festival especially
celebrated by Hindu Nepalese woman. You can learn more about it by simply
searching in google. Yeah that day, I literally stayed on my room only isolated
from relatives. I only had a slight greetings and nothing much. Its festivals
for woman but it’s not like men should not be involved in it. I missed out on
that as well.
After 15 days, there is my board examination. I made
a commitment to myself that I would not be involved on any other things apart
from my studies and uninstalled facebook, instagram etc. But once you have
habit of time killing, you could kill it by simply looking through photos on
gallery which I had already seen millions of times before.
I still play Cricket 07 game. It’s one of my
favourite games. It was uninstalled on my laptop for a while but just couple of
days ago; I found a CD-Drive of that game and could not stop myself from
playing. I still have nostalgic memories of playing games on my old computer
and I am keen on making memory for a future. In other words, I am already
living in nostalgia.
So while writing this, I have realized that it’s not
possible to experience everything in the life. As my sir said, life is all
about balancing the things. The things you have right now, the things you can
afford, the things you have today but you may not have tomorrow.
-Rohan Raj Mudvari