These Days

Rohan Mudbhari

Past few days have been a roller-coaster ride for me. My 2nd semester examinations are over and now the long vacation has already started. The main festival of Nepali people dashain is influencing pretty much everyone’s lives including me.
It’s the time of the year when you want to enjoy and do whatever you want. Unfortunately, that’s not the case in case of me. Being elder son of the family, there are certain responsibilities I have to fulfil. My other friends are probably enjoying their vacation. Majority of them may have already left the Kathmandu valley for celebration. I feel like being stuck in this city having no reasons to be happy.
Yeah, Dashain is the time of the year when businessman earns the most. It’s also the duration of time when you want maximum collection of money. In my case, money doesn’t bring happiness neither belongingness does. But, it’s kind of obligation for me as there are no other staff members other than one brother.
But it’s fun as well. Yeah, I don’t feel blooming and as happy as I expect myself to be but after a long tiring day at shop, there is a coffee break at evening which I really enjoy. From 1pm to 4 pm which is like peak hours, you have to move up the stairs and down the stairs simultaneously for transporting the required materials for customers. Argh, it’s really tiring and at one point of time, my head aches due to high level of noise and pressure. I don’t know how to cope with this.
At least at one time at the day, you feel so depressed and sad that even when mom is complains I am not working, I just give up and lie on the pile of pants for minutes. So basically, that’s how I recharge myself.
I don’t want to talk to anyone either. I have weird obsession of sharing meme these days. I don’t know why. Maybe it’s the reason that makes me happy at times when I am depressed. I hope I will enjoy these vacations and get myself blended into this festive air. Let’s hope for better tomorrow.